Thursday, October 23, 2008

i've been wondering for a long time

Am I the only one in this boat?

So, you discover a person that you really believe in.  When you cross paths with that person they seem as if they are needing someone to believe in them.  In fact, you even have conversations where he/she will say to you, "Wow, you've really helped me a lot and really helped me believe in myself."  

You can tell this person needs to be a part of something bigger than themselves.  So, you introduce them to a group of people that you know will love them and embrace them.

But then something tragic happens.  The person you believed in and invested so much into starts gravitating more towards the people you introduced them to, and they seem to forget that you were the first to lay everything on the line for them.

Some people wouldn't care about that.  But for those of us are naturally insecure, for those who are needing to feel appreciated, for those who are needing to know that your love doesn't go in vain, it sucks....you feel abandoned all over again.   And the one thing that you want to help people overcome and lead people out of, is the trench you find yourself deep in.