faceless.accomplished.nastalgic

Last day to work on the "Faceless" record.

About 5 more hours of work.  

I am so glad to see the end in sight.  My body is begging me to quit pulling these crazy hours.  Up at 9am, in bed at 4am.   

This morning, I am coughing uncontrollably for some reason.  My head is pounding.  I am missing my friend, Mark, back home, but at the same time, I want nothing more than to be with my dad right now.  

Alas, this record calls.  Going to finish up these mixes and then drive a couple of hours over to Lexington.  Mix the Friends EP, and then drive home to see family and friends for new years eve.

It's sad to be leaving Charlotte.  I've made so many new friends here.  People that I will legitimately miss.   I hope these relationships last.  They're good ones right now.

Time to pound these mixes out.

More later.

faceless.anxious

Woke up this morning not wanting to do another thing on this record.  It is kicking my butt royally.    

Things have been so up and down with production.  We've had days where we've gotten lots done and other days where it seems like we're moving at the speed of a tortoise. 

I don't have a good feeling about today.  I'm hoping I'll be proven wrong. 

I'm just ready to have this thing finished with.   It's burning my head to pieces.

faceless.humbled

Got so much done today.  Learned a lot today.  I've learned so much about myself over the last week.  I've learned many of my strengths.  I've learned many of my weaknesses.  I've learned that I'm not as weak in areas that I thought I was.  I've also learned that I'm not as strong in areas that I thought I was.

I've always questioned my musical ability and my ability to produce good sounding music.  But, for the first time, I am happy with something I've done.  

At the same time, I've become increasingly aware that I am not doing so well in my battle with depression and loneliness.  That I had been lying to myself about how much better I am.  

But what that even led to was my appreciating things I haven't appreciated in a while.  Times with friends becomes more and more special.  

Cameron came to Charlotte today.  It meant the absolute world to me.  It was incredible.  We hung out.  Cameron listened to the mixes and was very supportive.  We ate Cook-Out - my new favorite restaurant.  He was even gracious enough to do background vocals on one song and he did a killer job on them.

I am humbled to have friends that good.  At the same time, my heart is heavy for others of my friends.  

Sleep time for now.  Another day of mixing tomorrow.  My heart needs rest.  My head needs rest.  My ears need rest.

I am a sleepy boy. 

faceless.recording

I have spent the last week in Charlotte, NC recording a new record.  

I've always given myself a hard time about my recordings.  After recording roughly 7 records to date, I have never been happy with anything I've done.  When the project is done, I feel like it is sub-par.  

For the first time, before the record has even been mixed I am happy!  For the first time I'm proud of something I've done.

Finishing tracking today. And then move on to mixing tomorrow and Tuesday.  Head home on Wednesday.  Take my brother out for his birthday, hopefully, and then go to Atlanta for two weeks to write the new All Get Out record.  Busy times right now, but I'm occassionally getting to connect with good friends and it does my heavy heart a lot of good.